Back to that Soft Spot with my Ego

I have been caught up in an old complex of mine this week and in true "traci" fashion I try to solve it with my brain...it is a very very old behavior pattern...stuff I can remember doing at age 5. But the head never seems to be very kind in the way it tries to sort things out or change my behavior...

As I moved thru this material, I was reminded of the "soft spot" discussion from my last blog entry and how to be with this pattern in a soft, compassionate, open-hearted way. To take the whole matter right to the softest part of me and be still and quiet and wait...no solving. I also was reminded how much of this stuff I was struggling against was about my ego...and a teacher of mine sent some of his favorite quotes from Ekart Tolle's latest book ...but even my ego entanglements I can be tender towards. The quotes are provocative and I am reminded that they are to be read with a great deal of compassion towards ourselves and the suffering our egos cause us, not as another standard to use for self judgement...judgement is STILL the work of the go and so we/I chase our tails.

Here is to soft hearted or "soft spotted" awareness of our egoic foibles.

New Earth Quotes:
In a genuine relationship there is an outward flow of open, alert attention toward the other person in which there is no wanting whatsoever. That alert attention is Presence. It is the prerequisite for any authentic relationship.

The ego always wants something, or if it believes there is nothing to get from the other, it is in a state of utter indifference.

Three predominant states of egoic relationships are: wanting, thwarted wanting (anger, resentment, blaming, complaining) and indifference.

Whenever you feel superior or inferior to anyone, that's the ego in you.